You can't bear

I got this answer today when I talked about why I quit the child protection system down to top in Hungary. I was a bit pissed about this question or teasing. I told him: No. I have just realised as a young adult after spending my young years in the system and experiencing the systemic abuse and my small existence that I can not change this system from inside right now so if I do not want to support or suffer from the consequences I see other's suffer I need to leave. I should not bear even if I can.

But today I am wiser. Leaving a place may change many things, but some come back to haunt us.  I see systems in ourselves that we can change, and if we do, I am sure that slowly we change our world from the inside. I had support I am grateful for even today, and I feel I am ready to help.